RESOLVING PROBLEMS WITHIN

ALONE AND INVISIBLE

We all know that depression is a common and serious medical illness that negatively affects how you feel, the way you think and how you act. Depression causes feelings of sadness and/or a loss of interest in activities once enjoyed. This now often happens to teenagers.

Being sad and being depressed are two different things.I was at a very young age when I experienced depression. At first I thought I was just feeling sad but I realized that that kind of sadness wasn't normal.

 I think it started when the attention that was going towards me began to divert from my direction. I was barely noticed by my parents and siblings. I was alone and I was invisible.

        

  I didn't want to face that problem so I reverted my attention to my friends. I tried to look for a little comfort. Yes, my friends did try to help me. I became happy because of them. But of course not everything lasts, their concern for me slowly faded. They all left. They left me when I was suffering. And I was again alone and invisible.

 My depression slowly changed things about me. It changed my attitude. It changed how I look. It changed my way of thinking. It changed my outlook in life. It changed me. But it didn't change anything about me being alone and invisible.

    My invisibility to others lasted for a long while, as well as being alone. I didn't know what to do. I was always confused. Every little thing was troubling me. I can't find the peace of mind that I want. My mind was all over the place. I had enough. I broke down. I wanted to stop being alone and invisible.

     Wanting it to stop so badly I tried to run away. I left home. But running away from home didn't make it stop. It made the situation worse. So I went back. I went back still alone and invisible.

I couldn't think of anything to help me stop the pain. So I tried to stop everything. I gave myself a timer. I planned when I was supposed to leave this world full of aches. this world where i was alone and invisible. I wrote my final messages to all my loved ones. Letters of how I was sorry to be alive and how I existed. The day came, without hesitation I tried to end it. I wasn't alone and invisible anymore.

I woke up surrounded by the ones I love, telling me how stupid I was to even try it. I figured that ending my life wasn't the only way. There was a lot of ways to conquer these trials. There was indeed a way to not be alone and invisible.

I started  with the help of the lord. I asked help from my church friends and they made me realize that there is more to life than just mere sufferings and pain. That I had friends who love me and God id always with me. And I wasn't alone and invisible.

I then also started to talk to my family. We began to be ourselves when we are with each other again. the happiness among us and especially mine that was once lost is back again. I wasn't alone. I wasn't invisible.








Always remember that happiness and being faithful is the key. And no matter what happens, everything will be alright. And you're not always alone and invisible.